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Guys, Xanga is better :) Even tho i miss LJ..juss a lil. x) Liz, get myspace. now :) and u can join with me n rachel ^^ |
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[Oct. 18th, 2004|02:16 am] |
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ok..i cut and paste from xanga... hecka long entry but..u guys better read it...im taking away valuable OTIS TIME MANN
I think i have a problem...I shop WAYY to much and i should stop. (but i dont want to)
What can I say, Im goin into fashion design and i love clothes to death.
things that I BOUGht this week... (not including food)...
-grey skirt
-denim skirt
-3 pairs of jeans
-sequined green tank top (soo cute!)
-stripped dress shirt
-Blazer
-white sequined top
-Blue shirt
-brown belt
-baby blue top
-7 pairs of earrings
-vintage sequined bag
-green kitty tank
-Black pant
-pink top
-2 hats
-Uggs
-cashmere sweater for mom's bday
-Lancom'e gift set for christine
-Pink shirt for Joan
i think thats it for the clothing part....i think i spent 500 this past week. ahh!! i need to stay away from my bank for awhile.......and my cards...
Food wise, i spend alot too...........and dont mention about art supplies....
ANYWAY,
Time management at Otis is pretty crucial. I seriously have to plan exactly what i have to do before Friday. (which isnt even the end of the week yet). ANND if i dont follow these deadlines that I make, im pretty much screwed. I think im prety good at managing time, but..im fearing.."what if there is so much to do and no time"? *sigh* So..the solution is prollie..absolutely no sleep and play. (which is utterly impossible). Whats worse is, almost all my weekends are jam packed with stuff to do!. I want a social life gosh darn it.
One may ask, "what music do you listen to?". Well...what can I say, i like many, but lately I've been seeing myself listeniing and groovin' with Christian music. I use to have absolutely No interest in Christian music at all (before i accepted Christ). But now, I'm so captivated by it that I am a sticky sticker to it . Feels so verie verrie nice. I think, the messege that these music gives us are extremely positive, so ppo, Christian music rocks my world and it should ROCK YOUR WORLD TOO!
My parents are goin to Taiwan Monday ( tomorrow..technically today), and i think I'll miss them alot. Please help me pray for them that they will have a safe trip to and from. I really fear airplanes these days...(retarted 9/11). I realllly dont feel secure anymore about people going on planes. (I think thats why I didnt go to San Antonio, Texas and Orlando, Florida for band), im like deathly scared of planes. Argh, why does my parents have to go??? I'm so very very worried
On the bright side, I visited my Grandma this weekend!! I MISS HER SOOO VERY VERY MUCH!! She got skinnier i think, and she sleeps hecka alot. Me and Christine went and we saw soo manie relatives. I saw my favorite Aunt too! She's soo pretty and her eyes are like mine too! I reallie think i inherited her eyes..(like u kno how my eyes turns like when i smile? HErs is like that too!!) She has an awesome sense of style too! MAnn, i like her soo muchhiee. oooO..and i talked to my cousin. He goes to Santa Monica AI..and holy crap, its sooo close to OTIS! (he commutes tho) Its like..he can see my Otis building...so frigin weird! AND....he knows where I live too! (apartment complex right next to the ELECTRONIC ARTS building (duuude, that building is sooooo nicE!) *^^* It's so weird tho..haha...he got a pop belly too..frigin aye...
On another brighter note, I went to the car place this weekend and got my OIl and transmission oil changed... duude...my oil was literally black, and the car guy (dadddie's friend) got mad at me cuz i should have changed it looong time agoo...(whooops..) My car runs so happily now..() and...i can drive faster......... anyway, a friend that works there said he can give me springs for FREE...so I might lower my car...derno yet....its juss...i hate the speed bumps at PArk WeSt and at the speed i drive at..I WILL damage the bottom of my car . I love my car but...it will look so nice wen its lowered...bahhh...i derno what imma do..aniee suggestions?
Sooo happie..i finished 3 essays this weekend! (wheeeeeeeeeeee!!) But i have more crap to do...and I need to start form and space...hmm..maybe i should take a pic of it and post it so u guys can feel my pain. MAN, i really really want a digi cam. (bought the ipod instead). I wanna take pixes and put it in my site, oy, everything requires MONies..bah, i hate monies. whoopdeedoo...i had chinese food today! I havent had chinese food in ages. My Mommmie bought me some . Seriously..I've been eating ALOT of korean (thanks to my lovely cook Tina), and microwavables. ITS SO SAD!! I derrno how to coook! My drawer basically consist of....RAmen, Chefboyardees, pastas, soda, Udon, frappuccinos, chips....etc... so yeah...pretty UN healthy.
MAn, i have alot to talk about. I'll just rant my way through life with this xanga of mine. Its okay, If yah wanna read it...keep on reAdin... I got a haircut this weekend too....friginaye...I went to the salon that i always go to and i told her 2.5 inches..and she keeps on saying how i need to cut more hair..(last 3 times i went..she only cut like an inch). I love my hair long...=(. Anyway...my hair is now 6 inches shorter. BUT, i like the shape of it tho..i just love how she layers it. ^^. Oh well, hair grows.
OKAYY...now, im done ranting about my life..AND there prollie more to come...okayy..time to do form and space. peace guys and DO YOUR QTs!!!!!!! |
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|06:09 pm] |
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One of my first goals comming to Otis is to establish and continue my relationship with God. However, sometimes, i feel that im concentrating alot on school and not thinking about God enough. This personal goal is digging in me pretty deep and every Sunday, i feel that i have failed on the thickest packet of homework. When i first came to Otis, i came to truly rely on God because he set me here and i feel that i need to push myself harder than ever to work for Him. However, as time goes by, i feel that im slowly falling away from him. SOme QTs were left undone due to 4am nights out. EVerytime i skip a QT, i ask for forgiveness. HOwever, deep down, i didnt forgive myself. I now understand that i cant do things by myself. Sometimes, i feel that im the only one in control in what i do. I was Wrong. I cant achieve anything without the Holy Spirit. God is with me on this road to success and i trust him with all my heart. I love Him. I feel stronger and happier when im praying to Him. Stress level rising but i know im not alone and will never ever be. |
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[Oct. 2nd, 2004|02:04 am] |
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Thursday...
Thursday, had class, midterm next thursday. (OMG i dunno anything!!) went to comp lab to do hw, then had LA COMMUNITY GROUP!! :D i was reallie late so i had to drive their me self. anyway went to PINK'S hot dog. duude, frikin good! :) so happir that i saw everyone tho. :) And its Sarah's last day tooo!:( After pink's went to westwood and got deddie reise ice cream cookie sandwiches. mmmmm sooo goood!! and its only a buck! hehe after, i had to leave early cuz i had to go to comp lab to do hw. so i went back to school and stayed there till it was 12 (comp lab closes at 12)
Friday:
had class at stinkin 8'oclock in the morning...did some reallliee tite designs. hehe i love it! and then, after class, went to comp lab to work on stuff (2 hours) then, went bak to apartment and my roomie was there...and yAY! we solved our problem. so we all kool now. and i did my drawing & comp hw. then i packed and drove home. :)YAY freeway onlie took an hour!! then went to church for bible study. ^^ Then, went to life with sis and noel and ate yummy food. saw Brandon chen and derrick wang. man, havent seen those fools in awhile but its koo. after, i went home :)
haha.
anyway! SOUTHCOAST TOMORRRROEWWW then, i will go watch shark tale yay! :) |
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[Sep. 30th, 2004|02:27 am] |
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its now 2 AM, and hw undone...and wake up at 9 tomorrow and i smell like chlorine.
so yesterday (tuesday), we were gonna work out but, jen called and asked if i wanted to go get SOOON DU BU in Ktown. hECK yAhh! i miss soon du bu! (we have to go to Midori's JEAN!! )so bunch of us went: Me, tina, wendy, jenn, mike, dave krystal, (o crap, i forgot his name; mike's roomie) HE has the SAME LAST NAME AS MEE!!! wow! anwyay way; soon du bu was good and we were gonna get pa ping su but it closed. :(
wednesday: we had form and space. Got an A- on my cube :( grrrr.... then, we went to life drawing workshop from 345-645, then, we went to the girl's apartment. After, we went to buy some foood at Trader Joes and RAlphs. Trader Joes has these cheetoes thingies that are soooo GOOD! :) THenn..we went to dave's apartment and Tina Krystal and angela cooked :) Tina is soooo goood at cooking!! she should open a restaurant! i will go there everyday x)!! Anyway, me wendy jen chad and sai were looking at music videos the whole time! Houston is so cute :) hehe food was soOo good! had yummiee steak too!then, me and jen went to my apartment and i had to get my swim/workout clothes. it was fun cuz it was her first time there :)
she went all crazie saying our APARTMENT IS LUXURIOUS AND CLEAN. (we do pay 400 more each person a month...) anyway, went bak to their apartment and jen chad and i excercised and swam. woohooo 3 miles under 30 min! im so proud x) anyway, chad and jenn taught me how to float with some doggie paddle!! i can kindah swim~~ they my official swimming buddies/partners/teachers/TA :) it was so fun! and then we went to jacuzzi. MAN felt so nicE! after it was 2 and i didnt do my hw yet. :( so im procrasicinating =( bai |
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[Sep. 28th, 2004|08:56 pm] |
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Gary (life drawing) teaching got mad at the class cuz people kept on drawing rib cage and pelvesis...he was goin nuts. and made us stay 30 min after. =/ oy, i realllie need to practice like crazy for life drawing. Have to be top of the class....
On lincoln there is this reallie good crepe place...:) we went there for lunch today. :D i had creamy chicken..sooo good! seriouisly...LA has darn good food.
finished my cube today...teacher better give me an A or im goin crazy. have to redo my pyramid cuz i crushed it..bOOOo. =(
yay..goin to Park West to go excercise with the girls :D!! maybe swim too!!
im gonna take a nap now..tired |
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[Sep. 28th, 2004|12:09 am] |
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jenn says...the rape and crime rate here is reallie HiGH..i think i need some pepper spray...ooo and electricfiers...(men are suckers...they're gonna get toasted....*^^*) kekeke...anywho. I spent 3 hours on 41 hands and feets..damnit..9 more to go....i think ill be up till 2. and i have 8 o'clock class tomorrow too. boo.
anywho..i bought so much starbucks today :) i love coffeeeee..so addicted.
i say..when ur in college..IPODs are good friends to have. they just shut everybody up....except some anal techers "dont allow head phones" MAN..i hate anal teachers like Kovic..she can be a b*8**(sorry GOD) sometimes. (geez i really had to say that word) i was sooo looking forward to Color and Design and her retarted ways of teaching "design" is stinkin gay. i HATE HERR!! however, poeple so say shes a computer genius... oh well..we'll see..
arggh..im mad right now cuz i was going to go excercise but...the gym closes at 11 and i went at 1130. i was very sad..i wanted to lose my freshman 15....gained weight here...*sniff*...
off to work!
I MISS HOME!!!! |
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[Sep. 27th, 2004|04:06 pm] |
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so far at my life at OTIS...I have only met 1 other chinese...the other 24391734928384798237 people that i have met r korean. SOOO if your single and u dig HOT korean girls, come to OTIS. x) haha anywayz, asian population at Otis are all Korean. they all koo tho. =) Allll of my friends and 3 of my roomies are korean too. man, i love korean people, food, and men. (wel..japanese guys are the best thoo...) i LOVEE Dok buk ki (whateveah u spell that) too... we always eat that and seriously there isnt a day where i dont see someone eating kim chi. friginaye! and im not a big fan of kim cho either. buuut...Soon du bu....I LOVE!! GOOO KOREAN TOFU..i want to eat that everyday! AND my room mate cooks it too...mmmmmmm... man, i hate freshmen 15. have to keep up on working out.
anyway, time to do some hw.
-25 hand 25 feet
-color & desgin wheel
-simple machine
-stupid cube. :-\ (MAN..i hate form and space)
seriously...dont u feel sorry for me???
btw..please come visit..i will take u to the beach, 3rd street, berverly center....westwood...GoOODness..i love LA. AND i LOOOVE OTIS to death. Living 2 miles away frim Venice beach (its soo clean!!) and the harbor is stinkIN NICE! I LOVE my life!!!
n e who hw time! |
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[Sep. 27th, 2004|12:22 am] |
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Saturday..
Richard woke me up at 10..and we left at 1100 to SOUTH COAST!! yay!!! went and shopped for couple hours...Richard bought...dress shirts for his job...i think his first day is monday. congrats to him ^^. anywho...he saw some guy working at EXpress Men from KCCC (irvine) that went to russia with them...what a small small world he was cute too but...i derno..... anyway., i bought Clinique moisterizer and they gave my free gift! i love makeup gifts, they rock =D. anywho...we walked so much and my sandal was digging into my feet..and it started to get red and nasty...boo. stupid shoes.
after, we went to Maggianos? Little Italy..across from Sears. soOOOOoOoo...hehe. we went in and sat down...our waiter came and he was HOT!!! tall, cut, cute face, nice smile..he was perfect :D.
Me: Hey Rich...how come everytime i go out with u, we get hot waiters?
Rich: o my....i think we should get hot chick waiters for a change..
Me: MAN! hes sooo CUTe!
Rich: ...............
hHAHa..the waiter came by our table like 7-8 times...and kept on talking to me..:D i paid for our meal and for customer copy, the waiter wrote..."Thanks for Coming :)" Mann! that made my day...i'll be at South Coast more often now =).
so after that, rich took me home and i called up jenn if they wanna go to guppies. i drove to ceritos! hehe. and met up with Jenn and Tina. ..and i got lost too. Cerritos is actually pretty nice :). Guppies is FRIKKIN GOOOOOOOD!!!! i looove their food and boba..and the bread thing...my mouth is watering right now.. :) after guppies, we were nerds so we went to borders to draw our 25 hands and 25 feet for life drawing. it was fun and i met connie and david. they were kewl ppo. after borders closed..i went home.
Sunday: woke up at 11 and got ready for church...got there 1:00 cuz i was ushering :) i like ushering...like mary said...im perfect for the job :). ( stupid mike..kept telling me im "fired" cuz i got there 10 min late...)what a retard. hehe. anyway, had service and after, went to little bean. yumm :) and then went to aaron brothers, circuitcity, and jenn called if i wanna watch "TAE GU KI" yay! and mann she called stinkin at 6 and movie started at 7!!!!! ahhh so i went home, packed and drove to cerritos in 15 min!!! i am proud of myself!! and i wasnt late...except her and jessica were late. baka. xP. later, jennifer and david came. watched tae gu ki,...ahhhhhi love that movie and its sooo sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cried and so did eveyrone else...i love the little brother..hes HOT :) after tae gu ki, went to jen's then tina's and all 6 of us drove to OTIS(home). chilled at their apartment...and i had to do my essay so i went home early..boo. and im here...damn..and i didnt do my essay yet. ok, essay time... :/ stuipid beauty myth crap.
i love switchfoot!!!!!!!!! :) they rock like caaraaazEEEE >. |
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[Sep. 26th, 2004|11:57 pm] |
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Otis life....
im back to Ljing...i miss it and i cant keep fond readible memories no more...so here i am.
man, i feel cut out from the world here...im so far away from everybody...boo. but i see ppo in the weekends so im goood.
so hows OTIS?? its the craziest college ever..im serious. i have no free time...only if i finish everything and cram it all in just for a night out. classes are crazy and long....
mon: critical analysis & Semiotics 12:00-2:45
tues: life drawing 8:00-3:30 workshop 3:45-6:45
wed: Form and space 12:30-3:30 workshop 3:45-6:45
thurs: Drawing & Composition 12:30-3:30
Cultural Studies 3:45-6:45
Fri: Color & Design 8:00-3:30
so thats my official schedule...man, hw is crazy too. im in my apartment alot working on stuff. boo.
ppo here at otis are super kool. if u meet the right people that is. we have everything..gay, straight, girly, weirdos, abercrombie ppo, japenese street style people, funky people, gothic, etc. so everyday is a "suprise" here....
so what did i do this weekend ??
i actually had an extremely busy weekend. (and super fun!!)
on thursday...i had drawing and comp...it was interesting..had to draw 2-point perspective boxes...which is interesting. and for cultural studies...it was stinkin boring as HELL!!! i really dont liek that class:(. our professor actually teaches cultural studies at UCLA; which is kool. hes intelligent as hell. anywho...i got out at 6; teacher let us out early...and i had to go to computer lab .. by myself :( (boo...jen, tina, wendy, and sonia did theirs already) to finish my color and design project. I HATE CHECKER TILES FOR LIFE. and arghh!!! the printer at the lab ran out of ink! nOooOoOO.....actually my design came out stripey...and i think i got pts. docked off...(STAB PRINTER...) so i worked on that for 2 hours and i was late for LA community group (church)..so i went on 405 and went to west wood :) everyone met up at in n out. (me, david, alex, jessica, sarah, and jOE) so we ate their...and joe was checking out one of the UCLA security guards that was ordering...
joe: the girl security guards at UCLA are ugly as hell...but this one actually looks pretty.
(oh my.... i guess someone's been checking out TOO many guards at UCLA for 4 years...jeesgh).
anywho..after we went to joe's house to make a thank you card for BLock party outreach. out card was so beautiful and i drew so many things yay! and we had literally EVERYTHING thanks to my art bin...stayed till 2 am. i was stinkin TIRED!!
Friday: had 8:00 class and woke up at 7:54. holy crap..got ready in 5 min! but i was still late 10 min. boo. i hate Kovic...shes a nut head..she sooooo WEIRD!!!!!!!!! AHHHH! i dont understand her friggin language. ack. anyway, i liked my design too it was fun :) soo much hw too. so at break..we all sat down and mike lee came (he is famous at my school cuz he is SOOOO GOOOD at drawing...like .. he can draw anything..haha...he has furry eyebrows!! funny. dave came by too..dave is the BEST figure drawing person..even my teacher Gary praises..he is actually better than the teacher and the teacher is Godly good. (his brother makes 110 grand a year....damn good ass digital media person...) graduated from otis..last year i think..so crazie!! so after class...(3:30), i went to art store and went to my apartment to excercise! yay! and then i packed and went home. =) went to bible study late...and chilled with the church ppo. then went to watch FIRST DAUGHTER wit lin, jeff, karina, and edward. it was fun :) and i saw alumni band ppo there too...and my ex (andrew...he works at amc..)...oo movie was good and i went home :)
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deaaarrrr LJ:
wowie what a fUUUNN dayy. =). so last night i call big bro ben if we are going to have breakfast in the morning with church people..he said "yes, and i will call them" whee. :)
sooo saturday morning i woke up bright and early (7am) and went to Andy's house where everyone was meeting up. i was sooo suprised at who went: ME, Christine, Richard, Mike, Lynn, Grace, Andy, Ben, quiet korean guy, and Chris. omFreakinG! the food was sooo goood!! we went to "the orriginal pancake house"(in anaheim) and duuuuuuuuuude
i was gonna die from the goodness of it. CHEAP AND SUPER YUM :) i ordered this ham and cheese omlette..*droooool*..
After, andy had to leave cuz he had bball touney. we were gonna go to downtown disney.... but ben had stuff to do and he drove us...so we went back home and went to andy's house. Ben left for best buy and dog shopping. so we all stayed outside andy's house for like an hour thinking of where the hell to go -.- then, we finally deceided to go to Old town pasadena WOOO HOO. anyway, alotah people wanted to go home first toget ready so we met up at my housee laterrr.
after waiting 45 min for richard's butt to drive over, we went to olde town x). it was funnn...and SAD. My lent for this year is NO SHOPPPING till EASTER. so yeah..i was gonna CRY. :*(. yeahh...so sadd. anyway...2we had jamba juice, went to bunch of stores, Lynn had a BIG DILIMA in the rest room..*ahem* and grrr so madd..i went to banana republc and saw these AWESOME capris..BUT I CANT BUY ANYTHING!!! AHHH
it was TORTURE!!! so yeah...lynn bought them instead. hehe go her! so anyway..went to skating rink in pasadena...but found out that its closed till 8...and it was like 430..=.= so we deceided to go bak hoommee instead. :)
after home, we went to baja freah and ATE AGAIN and i was friggin FULL. yummy though. after, went to Disney ICE to go ice skating..woohoo x). duude..i got soo rusty!!! i havent ice skated since grade school. Luckily Richard was there to help me out :D. hahaha i fell 4 times!!! hehe soo funny and i ran into this chick and almost fell again..and made richard fall twice. :) oMG CHRIS~ he threw snowballs at me, and tripped me a couple of times..GRACE too!! everyone was atacking mee!!! soo EBIL. x.x hehe christine..skates realll FUNNNY. hahahaha. i hurt my knee when chris tripped me and i ate it harrrdd!-.- ebil. anyway...it was sooo FRIGGIN FUNNN!! my body still sores tooo!
after that, went to starbucks and got some coffee..whee. and got hooked up too xP. and talked till liek 1130...then went home.
dannggg...today was such a productive day..spent 15.5 hours with these guys..and see em tomorrow too :) fun. hehe next weekk: THE GROVE AND BOWLING yay! hehe havin mucho funnoz
anywho chow guys.
******LYNN GOT INTERVIWED FOR TV GUIDE CHANNEL :) HEHE..SILLY LYNN X) |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2004|12:02 am] |
in a song...just read the lyrics.
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I've kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I
Would
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone |
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[Feb. 1st, 2004|11:44 pm] |
02. Don't Stay 03:07
Sometimes I
Need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I
Need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm
In disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I
Need you to go
Sometimes I
Feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I
Just feel like screaming at myself
Somestimes I'm
In Disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I
Need to be alone
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
[Just give me myself back and]
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
[Just give me myself back and]
Don't Stay
I don't need you anymore
I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day
Of you wasting me away
With no apologies
linkin park
When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find/That I'm
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck/Hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
It's gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I Belong
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere/Only to fin that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain/Hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own
I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today
I want to heal
I want to feel like I'm
Somewhere I belong |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2004|11:17 pm] |
OMG OmG oMg!!!!!
I was driving and i received a call...and i got answered it and it was my counselor from OTIS. And she said.."Congragulations, JAnet, your accepted into Otis college of art and design". i was like..OMFG!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!~~~ =) =) sooo HApppiE~!
so yay!! my dreams have come true!!
wowzerz...went to Otis last week and they didnt even see my work yet..cuz they need my cal state fullerton transcript. so i sent a letter to cSF last friday..and i guesss they sent to otis pretty quick. :) and woohoo~~. christine sed...otis only accept 100 stdents a year. i was like...holy COw!. =)damn, i feel friggin good right now!
ttyl later peoplez~~ |
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[Jan. 19th, 2004|11:03 pm] |
Ghost of You and Me
What am I supposed to do with all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what i do
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go, when will that night be over
Chorus:
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine
Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me
Bridge
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over |
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[Jan. 18th, 2004|12:41 am] |
"you always believe your first love to be your last, and your last to be your first. for me, he's been both. we shared secrets and laughs, rainy nights and sunny days. though we experienced many storms together, we taught each other caluable lessons about life and love. the way that i was able to look at myself through his eyes was one of the most amazing feelins i've ever had. But, there comes a time when the feelings start to fade and the memories become bittersweet. A time where all that you can do is hope that somehow he will realize what a difference he made in your life and how he contributed to the person that you've become. i can't ignore the feelings that once were. I can, however, let go and remember." cassie kirby-chicken soup for the teenage soul on love & friendship
i keep looking in all the places, where you are supposed to be. but i never seem to find you, and you're all i long to see. i just cant seem to understand, what it was that changed your mind. all this time i thought i knew you, when really, i was blind. but know that i do not hate you, and i know i never will. because i cared about you then, and i care about you still. even though you hurt me, i cant seem to let you go. but i will go on without you, and i want to make sure you know. it will take some time to mend, the damage that you've done. but broken hearts do heal, that's where strength comes from. from now, the tears may be falling, and my thought keep circling to you. but soon, things will get better, if you have hope, then they always do." Kristy Glassen-chicken soup for the teenage soul on love & friendship |
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[Jan. 17th, 2004|09:49 pm] |
soo..i woke up at like 8 in the morning cuz of the azn expo thingy. i am dragged there every year by my parents. ~.~ i dont mind i guess..cuz i get in for free. whee. anywho, i think it was alot more fun than past years..i dunno why, but time passed by super duper fast. i bought all this shit there. =). hehe..food was yummy too. got full cuz of the samples, the samples are good too =). hmm..so what did u buy? lemme reflect...i got a hat for christine (sis). its reallie cuuute and furry =). hmm..then..i got a sweater, cd holders, hair clips, and these really awesome pillows..they arent like ordinary pillows..just ones that everyone will fall in love with. *they are on my car right now!!~~~* hehe. if u see em..ull see why i like them so much. i didnt see that many people there..just angela and jess kao. ^^ hmm..then..i left early cuz i wanted to go home and do hw. but, mommy made me go to costco to buy some stuff. im like..ok. so after costco..i went home..then..i didnt do anything after hehe. anyway~~ i have to do finalz for art his!! ahhh~~ cant find stupid infoz~~
well..anyway, BaI peopLez
payce out ^.~ |
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[Jan. 16th, 2004|07:10 pm] |
soo..its official now...im single :).
anyway, i was gonna call him yesterday to discuss some "issues", but i had 4 tests to study for and i was really stressed. soo..today, after 2nd period, we did our normal walk thingy..and he said "i think we shouldn't see each other anymore". so im like..ok. so there u go folks..4 months and 13 days..^^. well..I think im going through things ok. :) im still the same old me, nuthing really changed. And im not the type to hold grudges. So im prollie still gonna be his friend. ^^
and how do i feel u ask?: i feel ok i guess. im a lil sad but life goes on right? this break up was bound to happen since the passion was gone anyway. i didnt cry or anything..well tried NOT to. but, i just wanna say...i had fun through the 4 months and 13 days. who knew..how short this relationship is. haha. well, ttyl peoplez~~~ |
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